No Parent By J.L.D. (FREE WRITE, ESSAY)

This beautiful piece by a devoted PMA International member and Hero Protective Mom, expresses what we all feel in an eloquent manner. It is a re blog and worth repeating .

 

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No parent who loves their child, who wants to be with their child, who isn’t a threat to their child, who never abused their child, nor intentionally harmed them, should have their child ripped from them senselessly, unjustly, and to be then alienated from their child, in some cases, so severely, as though they have died, and to be left with having to beg for any knowledge or glimpse of their child, hoping and waiting on any scraps that *might* be tossed their way.

I am one mother who is exhausted from trying to cope with the knowledge that there are people so evil who carry out such cruel, evil injustice, and from having to implore the takers, the hostage holders, and their cohorts and other connected persons, of my own child, for something, anything, because something, anything, no matter how minuscule, is better than nothing at all. Facing more often than not, the abject rejection, of denial, so often given, with utter silence.

J. L. D  © 2013 Love Letters To Our Children

 

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I am Forever Changed ( Poetry and Picture Quote)

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” My Daughters-

Can you feel me when I dream of you?

Does your heart feel my heart as it reaches for you,

tugs at you in the night?

Does your soul hear my pain as it howls at the wind?

Missing you, loving you,

Grieving the loss of you in my life,

I am forever changed

You are never forgotten and always loved.”

© D.L 2015 Love Letters To Our Children

 

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The Center Of My Heart By J.S ( Picture Quote)

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The very center of my heart, the most tender part, is where my child lives.

© J.S 2015 Love Letters To Our Children

 

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You Are Close By K.R ( Poetry)

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” You are close, even if I can’t see you

You are in my heart ,even when far away

You are in my thoughts, my dreams, my blood, my soul

For you are my Child,

and I am your Mother.”

© K.R 2015 Love Letters To Our Children

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Listen to the Children – written by Steven Davis & performed by Randy Stockemer ( song)

A touching song written by a relative of one of our PMA International leaders for her children  and for all the children and protective moms suffering from family court corruption. Enjoy!

Listen to the children – written by Steven Davis & performed by Randy Stockemer

 

One Step Closer By J.D ( Song )

Created for  my son , though it fits all moms of loss of a child to others against their will, who are longing for reunion, and to show their precious child(ren) they have longed for them, ached for them, waited for them, because they love them.
“One step closer” an original by me, J. D
(based on Christina Peri’s A thousand years and sung to the same melody)
Heart still aches
Memories I can’t erase
I try to be brave
I try to hold on though I’m afraid
I’ll fall
I’m finding it hard to cope
But I have faith, believing our reunion is just
One step closer
[Chorus:]
Someday I hope you will reach out for me
When you do you will see
I have loved you for all these years
And I’ll love you forever more
Time goes fast
Sorrow and loneliness
How to be brave
How to be strong when I’m in all this pain
I’m standing I wont be shamed
All of my strength
Every breath I take brings me…
One step closer
[Chorus:]
Someday I hope you will reach out for me
When you do you will see
I have loved you for all these years
And I’ll love you forever more
And every day I’m alive I will stay true
Fate will lead your heart to me
I have loved you for all these years
And I’ll love you forever more
One step closer
One step closer
[Chorus:]
Someday I hope you will reach out for me
When you do you will see
I have loved you for all these years
And I’ll love you forever more
And every day I’m alive I will stay true
Fate will lead your heart to me
I have loved you for all these years
And I’ll love you forever more

J.D © 2015 Love Letters To Our Children

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I Will Always Love You by K J ( Poetry)

I know my arm is strong
the landscape of it’s breadth has held new life
has cradled the sweetest innocence
and protected a beating heart
I know my arm is strong
the same arm,
clenched tight by an angry fist,
is still strong

My voice is still here
the power of my words to heal and sooth
the joy of song and treasured talk
the chosen silence and the answers
no matter how heavy the hand
to bring down my voice,
my voice is still here

The heart
no words can tell
written, spoken, heard,
how you are my heart
my dearest child
that the deepest well within my being
holds your light and memory
always,
always,
and no man
no woman
no power, being, or force
shall take you from me
shall shake my grasp
of hope
that i will be your mother
that you are my child
and I will always love you.

K.J © 2015 Love Letters To Our Children

 

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I Love You Mommy ( A Daughter’s Drawing and Letter To Her Hero Protective Mom)

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I Love You Mommy

© J.S 2015 Love Letters To Our Children

 

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I Am Where You Left Me By E.J. Perth (Poetry)

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I remember you last….

Standing at the edge of your crib

Your eyes so bright

Your smile, toothless,

Drool pooling on your chin.

Just like every morning,

I kissed your head,

And lifted your chubby body

From the crib

You snuggled against me

My heart rose in my chest

Like a blazing sun.

I remember running out

Of coffee creamer,

And tipping a bottle of formula

Into my cup.

I remember your hands

Stained with sweet potato baby food,

You drew crazy spirals on your tray,

And I imagined those hands, one day…

Would be an artist, a builder, a teacher

Someone great and important

But always my baby.

You are forever a baby in my memory

I lost custody when you were so young…

The “protective order” did little to protect me,

Because in the end he hurt me

In the worst way possible…

By taking you from me.

In my memory you are still that happy baby,

In reality, you will be graduating from high school.

I have tried to write letters and send gifts

Did you get them?

I have tried to see you,

But was always turned away.

And when he moved away,

I was not given a forwarding address.

But I stayed in our home,

Keeping your room exactly the way you left,

You softie blanket is still folded in your crib

And your starry mobile hangs at the window,

Dust has collected on your tiny clothes,

I did not change a thing…

Hoping one day you would return.

Now, as you graduate from high school,

Do you wonder about me?

Or ask who I am?

I am your Mommy

The first one you smiled at

The one who answered your cries in the night

The one who encouraged your sweet potato artistry

The heart that throbbed when you placed your

Small head against my chest.

I am where you left me,

Standing near your crib,

Awaiting your smile,

Just like every morning.

© E.J. Perth 2015 Love Letters To Our Children

I wrote this for the Protective Mothers who are dealing with the loss of their children during the graduation season; you are in my prayers. xoxo

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Blocked From Keeping You Safe By D.T.H ( Letter)

Dear Daughter,

I love you more than words can convey. And I can’t begin to tell you how painful, how agonizing it has been to have been kept from expressing love to my child —

to have been prevented from caring for you. And to hear from others of signs you are showing signs of pain & emptiness…

I can’t express how desperately difficult this is, & how terrible it feels not to be able to make anyone protect you, let alone be blocked from reaching out & keeping you safe. It (this issue) is not you; it is this situation we’ve been put in — a situation which began a while back.
I will be where you need me to be. You only have to let me know. I would already be there if I knew it did not create trouble for you. I love you. I am here for you, waiting to know what you need me to do under these painful circumstances.

We are not alone. Other daughters & moms are also going thru this hell. We are praying for each other & for PEACE. But most of all,

I’m praying for you — your safety & wellness & right to love & enjoy your entire family. (These things all go together.There is no peace with  DV By Proxy or alienation.

I MISS YOU — your humor, your sweetness, your curiosity, your creativity, your talent with critters… our experiments with crafts/projects gone wrong, our practical jokes…

I’m so sad that so much time has been stolen — not just these past few years, but since you were small, too. And so much peaceful mother-daughter & family time was interfered with.

But I was happy for you because I thought you had all the caring attention I never had. I also thought (& had been encouraged to believe) that I had less value than others in your life, but now I realize that is a lie.
So many things I did & decisions I made were about trying to hold things together for our family under the weight of confusion. Although I regret my mistakes, ignorance, lack of parenting skills in an unfamiliar & unsecure situation, I’ve accepted (with the help of others) that I’m human.

While no one person should be at the center of any one’s life all the time (and no one, daughter, should limit who you love at any time, including — especially including: yourself), I strongly believe in the value I have in your life, or I would not bother in the face of so much painful rejection.

Control and rejection are two major components of  alienation

You know I stand for forgiveness, inclusiveness, love, harmony, & peace…, but I stand against intentional cruelty, with a heart ready to forgive that, too.

You have also inspired me to share with others about why someone should consider vegetarian and vegan choices!

Your loved ones need you to be safe & healthy!!

But, I am also enjoying all the little blessings & not-so-little things in life, & I pray for the day you will enjoy them with me & your whole family.

Love always, Momma

big hug, little hug, little kiss, little hug…

© D.T.H 2014 Love Letters To Our Children

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