” My Daughters-
Can you feel me when I dream of you?
Does your heart feel my heart as it reaches for you,
tugs at you in the night?
Does your soul hear my pain as it howls at the wind?
Missing you, loving you,
Grieving the loss of you in my life,
I am forever changed
You are never forgotten and always loved.”
© D.L 2015 Love Letters To Our Children
I know my arm is strong
the landscape of it’s breadth has held new life
has cradled the sweetest innocence
and protected a beating heart
I know my arm is strong
the same arm,
clenched tight by an angry fist,
is still strong
My voice is still here
the power of my words to heal and sooth
the joy of song and treasured talk
the chosen silence and the answers
no matter how heavy the hand
to bring down my voice,
my voice is still here
no words can tell
written, spoken, heard,
how you are my heart
my dearest child
that the deepest well within my being
holds your light and memory
and no man
no power, being, or force
shall take you from me
shall shake my grasp
that i will be your mother
that you are my child
and I will always love you.
K.J © 2015 Love Letters To Our Children
Long ago, child, do you remember still?
When I was a good mother and we made s’mores
You stabbed each marshmallow, dead-center,
Always careful to get it just right, delighting in your skill.
I can still smell those nights, all damp wood and sugar on fire
You couldn’t resist the urge to watch them burn
And hold them, torch-triumphant, in upraised fists of glory
I loved to watch you waving them like power
Your face clenched in victory over the elements of life
A simple bag of sugar can make us into gods
But finally, hungry and ready, you placed your fate into my hands
And asked for golden brown with full faith.
You knew, you knew that I was patient, capable and kind
So I took my time, spinning and spinning over glowing embers
While you watched like it was church, silent and still
And when it was finally perfect like the night
You kept vigil as I slid it so carefully, golden and plump
Between graham cracker and chocolate, slowly like a prayer
And when I delivered it safely into your waiting hands
You knew that it was never just about giving you dessert
~ © L.D 2014 Love Letters To our Children
My forkful of scrambled eggs trembles – yet I don’t spill any of my breakfast down my shirt.
My forearm spasms as I grip the steering wheel – yet I drive all the way home safely.
A pillar of anxiety spears through my chest, unable to breathe deeply – yet I carry on.
The first step behind us, yet many more to come on this long lonely trail, Mijo.
I am relentless – I will not surrender,
I will fight for your best interests until every single resource is exhausted
Until no breath remains in this body.
As I am to my mother so you are to me, my son.
A warm embrace, a squeeze of your hand, a brief shoulder rub
All of my love is encapsulated in these small gestures for now.
E.V. © 2015 Love Letters To Our Children
I miss my babies, every night I can’t tuck them in,
help them with homework,
hold them when they hurt, help them find solutions to their problems –
teach them to be the men that I would like to see them become….
happy healthy and fulfilled and confident in their choices.
I want to encourage good choices, close friendships, silliness, love, joy,
non-judgement and an insatiable curiosity about life.
I have hope that there will be some positive changes happening,
but I pray for patience!
© C.P 2013 Love Letters To Our Children
I’ll be here to watch you grow…
I’ll be there all your life and watch the seeds we sew.
You make life worth singing a song
When you are right here with me,
I ‘ll have the strength to go on.
Thank you for my children,
Here we are to today, the years have gone by
you grew before my eyes, time after time
I’ll hold you in my arms, I hold you close to me
rock a bye my baby, I’ll rock you to sleep
And, when I get too old,
To pick you up in my arms, I just want you to know –
I have loved every second of watching you grow.
The life I gave to you was nothing compared to
The life you gave to me…
Thank you for my children….
© C A .J 2013 Love Letters To Our Children
I feel like I’ve known you for years and years
Even though I wasn’t there to dry all your tears
I cherish the memory of holding you tight
That night in the hospital when I rocked you all night
It’s amazing I’ve found you, I want you to know
Makes me sad that I’ve missed out on watching you grow
I’m so proud of the beautiful girl you’ve become
It’s hard to believe that it’s me you came from
Fifteen years have gone by so quick and so fast
But it seems like forever since I saw you last
I hope one day soon we will meet up again
And something really special between us can begin.
I wrote this for my daughter lost to adoption the day after her birth. I love you, K.
© Amy 2013 Love Letters To Our Children
It’s hard to bear the pain alone
It’s hard to make your beds
And throw out the scraps of toys
That have no use now you are gone
It’s hard to get up every day
Without your warmth by my side
It’s hard to hear the house so still
Pull out from cupboard one set of clothes
One foot in front of the other
One task followed by the next
Focused on present so I can give you
The richness of mama not destroyed
I thought I would give up without you
I thought I would flee and turn away
Yet holding on greater to hope here am I
A strong woman and mother for you, I pray